I feel as if these posts about my future hopes would not be complete if I didn’t include one on the topic of love, my singleness and hopes for my future romantic life.
I can honestly say a few things about how I feel about finding love in my life:
- At 278 lbs, 3 years ago, I did not feel hopeful. At times I felt lonely, depressed and as if no one would ever possibly be able to love me. I KNOW that this had everything to do with how I was feeling about myself.
- Having lost 110 lbs now and turning 40, I can say that I do not feel this same hopelessness. I now feel better about myself. I feel that I have more of myself to give to a future mate and I am ready but not desperate to meet Mr. Right.
- I do believe that God has a husband for me and I am trusting in His timing.
- I do well being alone but I certainly do not wish to be single. I do want to share my life with someone.
- On children: Of course with age, this is a topic to explore feelings about. I am grateful that I am not a 40 year old woman yearning to have children. On the other hand, I am open to the possibilities if my future husband A. has children of his own B. Really want us to “try” to have children of our own C. Adoption -Â I do wonder sometimes if my many years as a nanny were actually my “mothering” years.
So there you have it…Â 😉
