My sister (J) and AJ got engaged last month. WooHoo! Wedding date will be June 16 – 6 months away. They know how much I’ve been struggling with my weight and recently with depression. Tonight while sitting around the table after dinner, we started talking about the wedding and their fitness/weight loss goals – hey, don’t we all have these dreams when we have special dates ahead of us? 😉
I started thinking/talking about how it was for me when my brother got married last year. I wonder if all overweight people feel these feelings of dread when faced with a major occasion? I felt guilty because, tho of course I was happy for them and to be there celebrating with them, there was a lot of talking myself into these feelings. What I was really thinking one week prior to getting on the plane to Illinois went something like this:
- What on earth am I going to wear?
- Who hasn’t seen me in awhile and how will they react to my weight gain?
- How hot will it be and do I have appropriate clothing?
- How on earth am I going to be able to stand up in front of everyone (with ultra cute sis (M) and sing?
- Will I fit in the seat on the plane? (hadn’t flown for awhile and last time it was starting to get VERY snug)
- Will I be so depressed/anxious that my mood will be noticeable – how can I fake my way through this event?
You get the idea….
So back to J and AJ and our talk around the table…IF I really take this seriously now, how much weight could I lose before the wedding? It might be a fun goal…something J and I can talk about/do together as she want to lose a few pounds (not near the weight that I have to lose) herself before the big day.
Hmmmm….I’ve been very inspired by the Biggest Loser lately, and they do manage to lose a ton of weight. I think that I will add these books/videos to my Christmas list and explore this program as an option. Weight Watchers is something that has worked for me in the past, but the 1-2 lbs a week is so slow when you have so much weight to lose. I know this is healthy, but when you have 100+ lbs to lose (Yes, that’s really where I’m at!) perhaps more drastic weight loss can occur. (like with the Biggest Loser contestants)
I’m really going to think about what it would take and mean for me to make this THE big goal for me in 2007. Working from home, I do have a very flexible schedule to work with – I really could focus and get very intense with an exercise program. I also have a gym at my apartment.
Could I lose 50-60 pounds by June? How would I feel at this weight? I would still have a lot to lose, but from experience I know that the act of being in the process can have tremendous effects on how I feel about myself, so I’m betting that I would feel pretty good with that amount of progress.
Ok, for now I am committing to this plan. I HAVE to do this! If not now, when? It’s time to get this weight off once and for all…stay tuned. (and wish me luck!) 😉
